|My Armpit two days ago.|
I am so upset by this, I have eight more treatments to go, what is going to happen to my skin during them? Will it completely disintegrate? How am I supposed to treat this, the steroid cream that I have been given burns when it hits the tears, and I don't see them healing anytime soon. The shitty thing is that during this entire time of radiation treatment, my cancer has actually grown. I know, you're wondering how the heck I would know that. Well it's pretty obvious, especially to anyone reading this who has IBC. Let's just put it this way. Before I started chemotherapy, my right breast was the size and consistency of a honeydew melon. Then after eight months of treatment it had shrunk back down to match my left breast. Now, since the chemo has stopped it has grown again. It is certainly not honeydewish LOL, but it is quite a bit bigger and I can feel the hardness of the cancer within. So, I ask, why the heck am I going through hell with radiation when it doesn't appear to be making any difference to the cancer?
I cannot wait until the surgery when they can remove all of it from my body. Although I really don't know how they can possibly cut me open and expect my tissue paper skin to heal back up. This would be a miracle and I'm ready for miracles.
Well, time for me to sign off. I have to go and get radiated again boooooo.